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​The Dawn of Valentine

It’s now 11:40pm and like every other night I lay on my bed, eyes wide open, writhing away in pain so intense that I bleed from every opening and feel the pangs through every fibre constituting my small compact but shredded body. Shredded by the invisible claws of sheer wickedness, wickedness begat from a love turned sour. As I bleed, both water and blood… and drowning away in my own thoughts and heart intent … I am jolted back to the present by the beep of my phone with its colourful light, as I lay down and find solace in the pitch darkness of my room. I look at the phone and it dawns on me – It is 11:55pm of February 13.

Then It crept into my mind, like a sweet peaceful flowing river and immediately; I jumped up… one by one I let go of every piece of covering holding me to my bed… after which I let go every bit of clothing clinging to my skin to afford me some means of comfort and warmth away from the cold night, the stone cold world and my ice cold heart. When I was done – as if instructed by an unseen being or unheard voice – I looked to the left and then to my right, while I let myself slip away through the door of my room. I continued down the hallway, strolling through the corridors with fire blazing from my eyes and finally, I let myself into the rushing harsh wind, away from the constraint of the walls of my building as I stand in the open, just as I had come into this world… and I let it all go…

… “I curse you today! I curse you with the curse of heaven! I curse you with the curse of the earth; I curse you with the curse of the night, the curse of the dead of the night! … I curse you with the blood that flows through and out of me! I curse you with every drop of water that passes through me! I curse you with the curse of silence! I curse you with the curse of pain! I curse you with the curse of nakedness! I curse you…” as I let out the last three words, I could feel my ice cold heart thaw away as I break down sobbing – it’s been a while I heard myself speak and let go of all the hate, pain and sorrow I had piled up in me for the past 12 months – the pendulum of 12:00am February 14 struck away as if feeling my pain and giving a response to my screams into the dead of the night. 

Oluwakemisola A.

10/02/17

6pm

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Life is Short

“Life is short”.

I know this statement or saying is so cliché that it has lost its effect but I want you to say it – slowly and meaningful…

Life. Is. Short. Really.

“Life is tooo short to be sad, worried or anxious half or even as small as one percent of the time”…

Life is too short and long at the same time – irony and paradox of life – to be “managing life”.

Some days back, I became a year older (I am not so old, infact, I am just 12 years old) and am I happy? Well, mixed feelings.56bf52cb399aa1bae3b6500680422060

I got friends turn sisters, brothers and uncles, roommates turn family and the real bae family around but that didn’t change the feelings and thoughts I had deep down inside.

I got older and had a “sober reflection”, like I love to call it; “sisters” that have gotten married, friends that got new assets, properties and so on and here I am, single, losing weight and sitting on my 6-man-battalion-barracks-hostel-room-bed-space almost penniless and without even a decent phone. Lol. Funny, isn’t it?

#sighs #deepbreath.

Well, but in all of these, I am happy and free (I remember that song that was and still is my favourite…), I am grateful and thankful for the gift of life (like a lover advised me to…), I am thankful to the epic Jehovah – who is seeing me through – for the gift of positioning, “good health” and sanity.

And with time I have come to realise that happiness and joy is internal, and should never be attached to anything external ‘cause honey, they will fail you – woefully.

So, I have decided, not to let anything external take away my inner peace, happiness and joy, I have decided to let life take its course while I row happily with it and I have decided to let the Almighty take the wheels not letting other peoples’ time or life or story rob me of mine.

Reason for this decision; life is short, terribly and amazingly short… so short that it shrivels out in a twinkle of an eye and yet sooo long that it takes years to get to the end of it (that’s if you are privileged or lucky to last that long though, no harm intended, just plain truthful…).Live-now-1024x1024

So final advice; live now, be happy, smile a lot, laugh out loud, enjoy yourself, go out, meet people, have fun, travel to someplace new, dance now and then, jog once in a while, be positively remorseful not regretful, love the Lord, don’t let “people” decide for you ‘cause “you” own your life and would be held solely responsible and accountable for it, make impact and touch peoples life… let them remember and miss you when you are gone (which one day you would be)… and always remember  and have it at the back of your mind that “life is short and eternity is forever”…

And below is the link to my original birthday message…

https://kemisolaagoyi1.wordpress.com/2016/08/28/the-beginning-of-a-new-perfect-366-days/

Love y’all

Oluwakemisola A. , 10th of August, 2016.