Category Archives: Choice

Just Once.

​I did it just once and I got bitten.

I went down that road just once

And I got stuck forever.

I went for the kill just once

And I got scarred for life.

I jumped to catch just once

And my bones crumbled continually.

 Just once, I thought of you

And your memories lingered on.

Just once, I felt your touch

And I couldn’t let go.

Just once, I let you see

And you saw to my depths.

Just once, I let you hear

And you heard the epistles of my soul.

Just once, I let you glow

And unfading, you became…

I tried it just once and I got the gold.

I tried just once and I crashed in the dust.

I tried it just once and glory came for me

I tried it just once and the gallows kept calling for me…

For once, I took that turn

And I was turned forever.

Just once, I looked to you

And you got me hooked on you.

Just once, I let you go

And you left, without looking back.

Just once, I let you in

And out, you left in me a seed.

A seed that grew into a tree I couldn’t hew down…

Just once, just that once…

And my whole being spun at once.

Just once, just that once,

I got scars to nurse.

Just once, just that once…

I can no longer take a step back

Just once…

Dedicated to everyone that made a “one-time decision or mistake” at a point or the other in their lifetime, that left indelible marks in your lives – in whatever area (career, education, relationships, marriage, religion… And so on)

You are stronger than your faults.

Oluwakemisola A.

July 21st, 2017

WHEN I STARTED TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY “EVERY” ACTIONS…

​I will never forget and forever remain grateful for that fateful day in the year 2015, when I walked into Tunde’s clinic for the first time. And after several sessions with him, I realised that I had lived my whole life making certain mistakes.

I had made it part of me – my entire life – to blame situations or people for certain actions and thoughts of mine. Although it was a bit challenging but after several sessions; I came to a realisation, made decisions and ultimately took actions. I realised that, I could either continue to “brood about how unhappy my childhood was”, “about peoples actions towards me” or “certain unpleasant situations in my life” and allow all of that result in negative feelings of sadness, bitterness and anger which ultimately results into “certain wrong or irrational actions I took” or “I could start taking charge of my own actions and thoughts, controlling them, becoming the architect of my own life”. Hence, taking full responsibility for my actions. 

Over time, I’ve watched a lot of people make similar mistakes and it has become a thing of great concern to me; as I’ve watched people not live their lifes to the maximum potential due to these mistakes. 

Below are 5 of the common mistakes I’ve seen and heard people make:

1. The reason for my behaviour today and bitterness is because I had an unhappy/abusive/difficult childhood.

No doubts, early childhood environment and psychosocial development contribute a vital portion of an individual’s life, but at a certain point in your adult life; you need to stand up for your – own – self. Only “you” can do that, you owe it to yourself. You have to decide to be happy and take full responsibility for your actions and thoughts. Rather than using this reason as an excuse to be sad, bitter, angry, irritable and ultimately carrying out irrational, violent or wrong actions. The decision starts first with you. 

You can choose to be happy, get help, seek and learn from others who survived through similar challenges and inform yourself. All these can be challenging and not so easy, trust me I know, but they are crucial to healing, self-growth and development in order to live a life of full potential.

2. Please people, there are no such things as; “I don’t know what came over me” or “this was the work of the devil” or “I raped him/her because him/her tempted me or got naked in front of me” or “I killed/was violent to him/her because they annoyed me”…

All these are never excuses or reasons, they shouldn’t even be heard of at all because you ultimately performed that wrong action. There was always the option of “walking away from annoying, painful or tempting situations” or “deciding to just not do it”. But, it all comes down to the fact that; you thought about doing it in your head first, secondly you didn’t discard it, and then you made the final decision and eventually performed that wrong action. Never blame people for your actions!!!

3. I can’t love or trust again because someone broke my heart.

My dear, you are going to miss out on a whole lot in life and may not live life to the fullest if you continue with this notion. You do not have to allow the person that broke your heart continue to influence your present thoughts, decisions and actions, long after they’ve left you. Trust me, they aren’t worth it! It’s a choice you need to make now – by yourself – to grieve, let them go, move past them, pick up yourself, be happy, hope for the best in your subsequent relationships and love again. I personally do not believe in the “he/she broke my heart” line. I like to see it as “I let him/her break my heart” because I believe it’s “ultimately my decision” to be sad or unhappy despite whatever  someone has done to me and it’s my duty to take care of myself.

4. I showered him/her with gifts/money/time/commitment/my all and they just used me only for what I had to offer them.

No doubts, this can be a really unpleasant experience when we think about it. After given a lot to someone or a course, only to realise we were actually been deceived, used or manipulated but at the end of the day it is better we take responsibility and not blame them for whatever we are going through. Not disputing the fact that you may have been used but it also doesn’t change the fact that, “you are the one that eventually made the decision and action to give all these things willingly”. Think in the direction of; you will be smarter, more vigilant, well informed and be able to watch out for deception in your subsequent relationships and hence, will make better and well informed decisions and actions.

5. Ignorance 

Some people claim “ignorance” is the reason they involve in or carry out certain actions. Either “genuine ignorance” or “false ignorance” is never enough reason to carry out any wrong act. At some point in your adult life, you need to take charge of your life and actions, educate yourself, read books, be informed, ask questions, go to seminars & conferences, go out of your way to learn new things and be determined to do the right thing. The fact that you did not know something was wrong before doing it doesn’t make it excusable. 

In conclusion, have a positive attitude to life; no person or situation is ever a reason to influence your thoughts or actions negatively. It is best to learn to take responsibility for your own actions and thoughts as this makes you – more – in control of your life, to live life the way you want it and not just be as chaff that goes in any direction – people or situations blow them to go.
Be the architect of your own life! 

Don’t let yourself be the victim to people or circumstances!  

Remember only you can take care of yourself! 

Make decisions and take actions that profit you, make you happy and lead to self growth & development. Only then will you live life to the fullest, achieve your goals and attain your maximum potential in life.
-BAMIDO BOROWA, 2017

Photo credit, Google.

2016 has come and gone; cheers to the New Year

I know I have been, an unfaithful end of the year/beginning of the New Year lover to my blog and readers… but please forgive me; believe me it wasn’t my fault… I am just overwhelmingly busy and choked with activities. Trust me.

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So many great people in one picture… #Greatness #StartedFromTheBottomNowWeAreHere

So a recap of my year, as usual. First, I want to thank Almighty God – My Jehovah Le Epic – for the Gift of life, good health, sanity, family, friends, helpers and awesome team members (in all ramifications). I always thought last year (2015) was the height and limit of stretch point but alas! This year made me know my threshold was 200%. LOL.

 

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With NiMSA and FAMSA Excos… Caption our faces… #LOL

 

 

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#lol… she is my sister, best ever and the other is my “iya oko”… BTW tomorrow is her Birthday #Jan1Baby

 

Let’s start from school; my year started with us resuming into 500level, it was a new ball game entirely! Community health was… different, every trip and posting was a hit, back to back, from HMPD (Mama Campbell and Co.) to MCH to PPPHC to Urban (Somolu) to rural (Pakoto) to GMP (Ijegun) and even my undergraduate project (which by the way, a lot of people were surprised I finished it at the stipulated time, as busy and unavailable as I was) and then the great psychiatry. School this year, although almost always on the road, draining and tiring… but I enjoyed myself all the way.

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So that’s Brammy my bae, haruna another bae, Sheila my roommie, borowa my Bunkie, lizzy, funmi, minkky, costly, Sam, Dammie my teamies and Ogbeni Agbaje!… this picture is full of baes!

 

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So many women leaders… so many stories… all in one piece…

 

Let’s talk about politics (also by the way I hate been referred to as a politician, please, don’t call me that.) and the different things I was involved in this year. LOL. First, I think the best that happened to me was to be appointed as the “Liaison Officer to Partners for NiMSA” (Trust me, it’s worth all the stress), my office as the Chairperson of SCOPUB – FAMSA too exposed me to one or two things I didn’t know before. Then, The Press Club Unilag – my first love ever; all my days as the Welfare Secretary, I don’t regret and even now as the VP/Editor-in-Chief, I would give my best, because when all was down, that was a family that stood by me, taught me and held me up.

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me with The Press Club UNILAG fam… #TPC on tour in UI and to OAU

 

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Old picture but new caption and recent Campaign…

 

MWAN!!! This year had drama… but in all, it was fun!!! I ate, I lounged, I dinned with the la crème de la crème and the porsche de la porsche (if there is anything like that… LOL) of Nigeria’s very own medical women. Shout out to Dr Abiola, Dr Oyalowo and my ever loving Dr Oludare.

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Dr. Yetunde Ayo-Oyalowo and Dr. Yetunde Oludare… both of them are a source of inspiration to me…
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Yeah… that’s me, at the same event… looking all stressed up #coversFace, no time for facebeat sef #unlook

Now events; which was the highlights of the year… everything was a hit! Back to back! From the SCOPI Outreach program (shoutout to the team and SCOPI-D, Ojo Roland – Surest bae of 2016), to IPAS FBO SHRH Training (Shout out to Mr Edosa, his team, and the entire NiMSA crew – Sam, Haruna, Hamzy also costly and funmi… ), to SCOPI National Conference, to the 5th Ngozi Agbo Media Lecture, to MWAN AGSM, to NiMSA FIS even to church programs and friends’ weddings … I Bless God for the amazing success  of all and all the team members I had… y’all are the best!

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so much life! like when you see me… #kisses
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Beautiful people! so much smile… #smiles #memories

Moving onto travels. This year my travelling was limited but the year started with ABJ (which I think was my best so far, the luxury was on point…), then different conference trips to Accra (was a road trip #MyWestAfricaTour and was #ThaBomb!) and Teshie, Ghana (where I presented and met some really cool people), then there was Ogbomosho (LAUTECH), also Babcock, Ilisan (the experience there was… hilarious in a cute new way, #DatsAll. LOL), then the UI and OAU tour one weekend with my TPC family (was fun, sporadic and crazy!), then I got banned from travelling for the rest of the year, so I missed Zaria, Sagamu and Burkina Faso… #sad.

 

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me fooling myself… #LOL

 

 

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Happy People!!! Different expressions #LOL

 

Things I learnt from the year;

  1. Help comes from unexpected places and people, and undiluted strength and comfort only comes from GOD Almighty.
  2. Don’t base your happiness, functionality or productivity on people; people fail, people disappoint, people discourage, people push you down, people backbite, people desert you, people do all sort of crazy things (lol… #Memories…) but only GOD and your family would not. Trust me. Trust God.
  3. Live your life, do whatever makes you happy and fulfilled, don’t think of negativity of what people will say, do or are saying or doing… either ways #WhoDeyEpp?… ‘cause at the end of the day, it’s “your” life and “only you” and “you alone” would give account for it.
  4. Brace Up, Do Your Thing, today may look gloomy and tedious with setbacks but your reward is on its way! Just be strong and believe.
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3 strong women… although Bisola doesn’t like this… but she loves me… I love you too! #kisses

 

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Ms. Megbope spoke to my soul… one of the realest convo I had this year… God bless you wherever you are Ma. #Inspiration

 

Okay, finally let’s talk about parties I enjoyed for the year, I think apart from weddings, the best was my baby’s (OgheneNyerhovwo) birthday and then the various dinners… #DatsAll… This post wouldn’t be complete without mentioning some other great people to me in 2016, in person of, Dr Esiet and AHI team, Dr Odeyemi, Mr Ogunronbi, all the UNFPA Lagos Team, My two sisters (Bisi and Pelumi, they are savers!), NiMSA FIS LOC (I LOVE YOU ALL!!!), FAMSA and NiMSA peeps (y’all are the real MVP #kisses), my epic roommates (the 534 crew… y’all loved me and took me as I am… I love you all!!!) And my awesome friends… you all know yourselves… y’all were my hold, I love you… #InTears

 

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yeah, that’s me rocking the NiMSA shirt, my roommie Pst Faith and Stanley at SCOPI Outreach…

 

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My project poster presentation… Oya learn small… #SHR #FemaleAdvocate

 

On a final note; I was deserted, stretched, embittered, taken for granted, tried new things, learnt new things, went to new places, meet new people… I cried, went hungry, sick and almost severely depressed or manic… but God was epic in his compensations to me and he saw me through it all.

 

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I so love this picture! Happy New Year Guys…

 

So brethren, sit up, look straight, tidy your crown, hold up your glass… as we gallantly step into the New Year with grand style. Cheers! to the New Year people.

God bless you and the works of your hands.

 

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you must have seen this before… that was in Ghana… #smiles

 

 

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Birthday Selfie in front of 534… #KISSES

 

OLUWAKEMISOLA A. … I Luurrhhh y’all!!! happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!

The Beginning of a new-perfect 366 days

Today marks the end of another 365 days in my life. First of all, I want to bless the Lord for the gift of life, good health and sanity – Trust me, it’s all by grace.

Reminiscing over what has happened this last year of my life, I realised I have grown in all ramifications. I have learnt to and actually unlook, unhear (Ecc. 7v21), even unsee a whole lot of things. I have learnt to and endeavoured to make a positive impact wherever I find myself, regardless. Although silence is golden but I have also learnt to speak up and speak out for what I want.

I have learnt a whole lot about friends, colleagues and family and have come to realize that only one is your true friend and comforter. Also to the most important I have learnt, well always known that, choice is the greatest power given to man and I have made a whole lot of different choices, even inconvenient ones that I have learnt to live with its consequences and outcomes.

And before I forget, thanks to all those who contributed to my life this year, I would have loved to mention names but the list is endless, either ways permit me to mention Olujide, for he was a part of my life. Thanks to all who aided, supported and encouraged me; physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially, professionally, academically and morally.

As y’all have sown into my life, consciously and unconsciously, May the good Lord sow into yours too. Finally, special thanks to my Mother and Father, who let me soar high and fly away, believing me and trusting me to come back home to rest; which I will eventually do.IMG_20160209_103236

#smiles join me in this perfect beginning journey…

Oluwakemisola A. , 6th of August, 2016.

 

Life is Short

“Life is short”.

I know this statement or saying is so cliché that it has lost its effect but I want you to say it – slowly and meaningful…

Life. Is. Short. Really.

“Life is tooo short to be sad, worried or anxious half or even as small as one percent of the time”…

Life is too short and long at the same time – irony and paradox of life – to be “managing life”.

Some days back, I became a year older (I am not so old, infact, I am just 12 years old) and am I happy? Well, mixed feelings.56bf52cb399aa1bae3b6500680422060

I got friends turn sisters, brothers and uncles, roommates turn family and the real bae family around but that didn’t change the feelings and thoughts I had deep down inside.

I got older and had a “sober reflection”, like I love to call it; “sisters” that have gotten married, friends that got new assets, properties and so on and here I am, single, losing weight and sitting on my 6-man-battalion-barracks-hostel-room-bed-space almost penniless and without even a decent phone. Lol. Funny, isn’t it?

#sighs #deepbreath.

Well, but in all of these, I am happy and free (I remember that song that was and still is my favourite…), I am grateful and thankful for the gift of life (like a lover advised me to…), I am thankful to the epic Jehovah – who is seeing me through – for the gift of positioning, “good health” and sanity.

And with time I have come to realise that happiness and joy is internal, and should never be attached to anything external ‘cause honey, they will fail you – woefully.

So, I have decided, not to let anything external take away my inner peace, happiness and joy, I have decided to let life take its course while I row happily with it and I have decided to let the Almighty take the wheels not letting other peoples’ time or life or story rob me of mine.

Reason for this decision; life is short, terribly and amazingly short… so short that it shrivels out in a twinkle of an eye and yet sooo long that it takes years to get to the end of it (that’s if you are privileged or lucky to last that long though, no harm intended, just plain truthful…).Live-now-1024x1024

So final advice; live now, be happy, smile a lot, laugh out loud, enjoy yourself, go out, meet people, have fun, travel to someplace new, dance now and then, jog once in a while, be positively remorseful not regretful, love the Lord, don’t let “people” decide for you ‘cause “you” own your life and would be held solely responsible and accountable for it, make impact and touch peoples life… let them remember and miss you when you are gone (which one day you would be)… and always remember  and have it at the back of your mind that “life is short and eternity is forever”…

And below is the link to my original birthday message…

https://kemisolaagoyi1.wordpress.com/2016/08/28/the-beginning-of-a-new-perfect-366-days/

Love y’all

Oluwakemisola A. , 10th of August, 2016.

THE UNLOOKING GAME

I see you along the alley speaking with and caressing another,
Immediately, I unsee.
I see you cheating on our beloved…
I see you showering love on her instead of me,
I unsee immediately to avoid complications.
I see your chat with him snitching on me,
Immediately, I unsee.
I see your messages to her gossiping about me,
I smile and I unsee.
I see you taking out mine,
I quietly unlook.

I see you hailing me, hear you praising my deeds.
I unsee and unhear immediately,
I do not let it get to my head,
Or let it interrupt my train of thoughts,
So, I move on.

In life, we see, hear, think and know a whole lot,
But most times, its best to keep it to ourselves and “un”-do;
Unsee, unhear, unthink, unpercieve… even unknow.unnamed-1-1-740x431

Because the more you see the less you know,
The more you look, the less you think
So unsee whatever can make you gloomy or takes away your peace and calm.
The more you hear, the more to think about
And the more you think, the more the problems created.
Avoid giving yourself unnecessary trouble.
Immediately unlook things that can make you sad.

Be like me, be smart,
Increase your happiness space
Step up your unlooking game
‘Cause at the end… its but a game.

Oluwakemisola A.

14.3.16 (All photo credit to bing)

SELECTIVE AMNESIA

Do you remember me?
Where were you last weekend?
Can’t you remember our last discussion…?
No, sorry, I can’t… I think I forgot.

Actually, if I search deep, I think I can remember
But then, I choose for it to remain forgotten.
Recently, I choose what I forget and what I want to remember.
This way life is easier and I don’t have to worry over too much,
I don’t have to brood over sad things or over indulge in happy things.
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But in whichever way it saves my memories,
…it saves me pain and saves me smile.selective-amnesia2 (1)

You would probably think I have short term memory,
But you have no idea how much is etched into my memory…
I think I have selective amnesia,
To selectively and preferentially pick what I remember or not.
But I know I selectively forget things.

Oluwakemisola A.

14.3.2016